whoever's angry, loses.

I don't know how not to feel angry about my maid. I don't know how to manage my anger. I guess it is now a war of either i am unhappy, or she is. as much as i want to make her happy. but the other half of me thinking that she is not worth it. but i thought i want to break away from this  vicious circle and be compassionate. But I guess at the end of the day my heart is not big enough.

she said she like to eat carbonara. mentioned a few times. today i thought i would made for her, since she will be going in 2 weeks time. and while me cooking there is a little episode. She cleans the cooking area in the midst of me cooking. i hated it. screamed at her. then later she refused to eat the spagetti. leaving a big left over. we are actually not a fan of milky noodles.

ask us to bring her to buy punjabi suit again. one end would like to bring her, and make her happy. on the other hand i thought, why should i? 

now she is watch tv with the rest of the ppl in the house. laughing the loudest. and i am here blogging angrily.

who is on the losing end?! I really don't have mood to watch tv.