She cont. to have a grumpy outlook and black face, regardless of my above effort. That puts me off. and i wonder what else can i do?! Perhaps I can do nothing. What should I do to counter this negative vibes? To care? I don't have that much of metta (loving kindness). Currently I actually just give up. I don't want to ask or know what she does. Just hoping that my new maid can come sooner and I can start a fresh chapter. But it seems I can't run away like this. I indeed cannot -ignore of what she is doing. as much as i wish it can reduce me suffering. I really have to find ways to deal with it. to deal with my weaknesses in such area.
Dear Buddha, the mightly dhamma teaching, can u show me the way?